Hubris House has been overcome by illness lo these past couple of weeks. It was inevitable- everyone around us is sick- but super time consuming (and occasionally terrifying) nonetheless. Today is the very first time I've been able to get to life as usual. May I just say that creative writing is next to impossible when one is surrounded by sick people? I write 1000 words every day but about 800 of them are "Holy cow why did I ever think this was a good idea?" or things along that line.
I'm sure you don't want to hear about it. Usually I read or knit or work in the garden to relieve stress, and make time for thinking, but reading is not an option for me right now- I'm plotting a new book (when I write, 80% of the book is written in my head before I put a word on word processor- then it's outlined and then fleshed out then extensively edited, peer reviewed etc- in case the process of an (as yet) unsuccessful writer interests you) and reading is too distracting. I'm sick of knitting and I've done everything that can be done in the garden at the moment. Leaving is not an option- I can't go anywhere because sick people need me here.
So I've been playing the most pathetic video game ever- Sims 3. I love it- it's a lot like writing actually- but my family thinks I'm pitiable. My sim is single, she's very ambitious (she's VP to the ruler of the free world don'tchaknow and only a couple of charisma points away from being the ruler of the free world her own self) she's rich... what's not to love? Sure she can't meet a decent single sim man but who cares? My sim sure doesn't. A fabulous spa package or two later and all the stress just floats away.
By the time I'm sick of the game life should be back to normal and maybe my new book will be so great agents will query me (ha ha.) Maybe one of the contests I've entered will be fruitful. I don't need to win- a simple but, you know, heartfelt "hey your work shows potential- keep up the good work" would be enough.
I know where I want to be, I know what I need to do to get there and I'm doing it. I just wish I'd get some feedback.
Sims- full of feedback.
I may be pathetic but... well you can't really go anywhere good with that statement. I am pathetic but only because I haven't succeeded yet. When I win (and I will win or die trying) history will show me as a devoted suffering artist. Ha. Suck it naysayers.
Phew. How many words was that? My sim just bought a new house and I'm looking forward to redecorating it...
Later blogfans- Have a great week.